i have been very contemplative as of late. little things here and there get me thinking. there are so many things i could have been unsatisfied with, but yet there are so many things i should feel truly thankful for. life is a funny thing.

h1n1 is starting to affect people around me. and with the sudden tragic death of Michael Jackson, it's not been a very happy period for the world. i can't feel sad enough about the loss of MJ. i vividly remember the first time i saw the Black Or White music video, i was jumping up and down and dancing along with the song even if i didn't know the words. there was the dance, and there was the voice. the videos for Thriller (which i didn't dare to watch the first few times) and Billie Jean had the same effect, and when David Cook did that awesome cover of Billie Jean i knew he'd be my favourite Idol. there was also a period i couldn't stop singing Man In The Mirror and Heal The World. when i got to primary school someone knew how to do the moonwalk and i think i was in love with that person for a while HAHA. i reckon the world should stop watching the details of MJ's death unfold like a tv show and just remember the man's gift to the world.

click here to read what John Mayer wrote about MJ on the Time website. couldn't have put it any better.

playlist is pretty melancholy right now. i think music is a really powerful thing. my windows are fully open with the cooler-than-normal night breeze coming in. i feel the seasons(ok fine, weather) changing! going to curl up on my bed with a good book in a moment's time. am still full from the crystal jade buffet i had with the cs girls just now. managed to somehow finish the mountain of food and have our fill of xiaolongbaos. :)

speaking of cs. over the past week, i remembered the reason why i ever contemplated journalism in the first place. the very first reason why i had considered going into journalism. and if i end up doing journ (though there's really not a high chance of it happening), it'd be because of it. i'd lost much of my belief in journ after a year in cs, hence it was a relief to be reminded of the reason why i initially wanted to do journ before uni. who knows, anything might happen. haha.

meanwhile here's a line from one of those songs that are so beautifully written and hits me in a spot in my heart that makes so much sense.
“But I will wait for you, as long as I need to, and if you ever get back to Hackensack, I’ll be here for you”

peace out