Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Oh my poor bruised big toe. :(
Rammed my toe into the wall during squash this afternoon and it hurtttt like crap. This means that i either need new shoes, or i need to improve my rusty footwork, or i am just plain suay. PROBABLY ALL THREE. Squash was good today though, i was glad i could still play after months of leaving my racket untouched. And i've never seen the nie courts with so much activity, guess every hall is putting in their last bit of effort before the games start next week.
Every IH season i ask myself why the heck did i join so many sports. (This year i have squash tennis badminton and volleyball) I miss sport. It used to be such a big part of my life. In secondary school i would watch the clock tick down in class, i couldn't wait for class to end and training to start even if i knew it was gonna be a tough one. I miss competing. The anticipation leading up to a match, gathering all my thoughts and focus on the match, the thrill of stepping onto the court preparing to play the game of my life. There were of course ups and downs. I looked forward to the tournament period every year, to the draw, then to each match, and up till today I totally remember how I felt when we won the crucial match in Sec 2 and lost in Sec 4. That ecstatic, wonderful, uplifting feeling of team victory and that immense disappointment i felt deep in my stomach and with every breath i took. No matter how much we ran, perspired or how hard we hit, there was the feeling that we could have, should have done better. We celebrated and cheered as a team and we cried together as a team.
People often ask, isn't badminton or squash a lonely game(compared to team sports like netball and hockey), don't i feel alone and all by myself on the court? Some people forget that there's such a thing called doubles(lol), but even if it's singles, all i can say is, a singles player may be the only one on court, but he or she is NEVER alone. Badminton, tennis, squash and other racket games are very much team sports as well. When on court you are competing and battling together with your teammates and your coach, without them you are pretty much nothing. This is the reason why i don't appreciate people who regard themselves as the superstar of a team, who put themselves high up on a pedestal and distance themselves from the rest of the 'commonfolk'. This of course doesn't only apply to sport, it applies to basically everything else as well.
But I digress.
IHG gives me a chance to remind myself of what competition feels like. And may I emphasize, FRIENDLY competition. There was an IH basketball game last year in which we got our shirts tugged so violently in all directions we ended the match seething in anger. Not to say that we let ourselves get pushed around or that we couldn't stand up to bullies, but it was just an inter-hall game and there was certainly no need at all of shirt-pulling of that extent. Grrr. I digress again. Whether in familiar sports to me like badminton/squash or new ones like volleyball, which has been a really interesting experience so far, IH allows me to experience a little of what i truly miss. Maybe i SHOULD have joined a club after jc. Sigh me and my stubbornness.
Anyway! I heard a song today on class 95 that made me totally happy and hyper in the car haha. Love these kinda random moments. :) K off to watch show and sleep.
Take my hand
Tell me what you are feeling
Understand
This is just the beginning
Although I have to go
It makes me feel like crying
I don't know when I'll see you again
Darling leave a light on for me
I'll be there before you close the door
To give you all the love that you need
Darling leave a light on for me
'cause when the world takes me away
You are still the air that I breathe